I'm glad you found some comfort here, that's what it's all about; we're all in this together and we need to be there or each other regardless. I have found some very supportive and loving friends in all walks of life, and some very unexpected ones, so it never pays to judge anyone based on anything external, including what they do or don't believe, because a person's faith becomes apparent as you witness them withstanding difficulty. It may also unexpectedly become a resource you yourself will draw upon.
My grandmother was not "religious" and yet she had a great deal of strength and faith. I draw much faith from her spirit. She wanted so much to believe in a reward for living her life with integrity (she was basically a single mom, her husband was very ill/disabled and she had to work and care for two young boys in a time when women got paid zilch for working, she also didn't drive a car and had to walk and ride the bus to do all this), that she chose a quote for her headstone, "Now enter unto the joys of thy lord, thou good and faithful servant." (may not be exactly as it is) and her explanation was not "THE" lord, but "A" lord, your own personal belief and this reward was what living a good life was about, not in merely waiting for it, living it.
That she did. Faith is something that is tested by its very nature, and more so in adversity. I would be willing to bet that you are a very deeply faithful person no matter how it waxes and wanes.
Some of the people I rely on the most don't spend much time in a church, reading the bible or listening to any type of preaching...they live a good life and do things for others that often noone ever finds out about, the kind of good they in their hearts know, and breeds more good, ultimately. I like these kinds of things...happy secrets.
Liz
"The strength and resilience of the soul speaks to me of the power of faith, no matter what one's beliefs. "
Again susanne scores a home-run w/her summation. Very true and perfectly apt.