I really need some prayers and good thoughts

[Maxi'sMinis]

I am so sorry Jill. I wish I could do something to help you cope. I would recommend asking for a few Xanax to help with anxiety, just to get you through this. It will help you rest. I will keep you in my prayers dear and will be sending positive thoughts to get those doctors on the ball so they get you in to be seen right away. Try to stay busy to keep your mind on other things. God bless.

 

[Frankie]

Jill, I can't tell you HOW bad I want to post something political to bring out the fight in you!

You are a strong, intelligent, bull headed (in a good way), women. I know you will find a way to make the next 2 weeks less stressful. Your post is the first step,,,and boy is it ok to feel this way. You will find the best way for you, to deal with it all.

All good thoughts your way!!

If I can do anything, sincere, let me know.

 

[AppyLover2]

Jill I'm sorry to hear what's been going on. Please try not to dwell on the worst that can happen. As others have said once you see a specialist you may find this is nothing serious. Hugs and prayers to help through your wait.

I agree with Frankie.....a good political debate would give you something else to think about.

 

[Charlene]

jill, you will be in my thoughts and prayers!

 

[Barbie]

Prayers for a good report Jill. Hope you can get in and get some answers sooner rather than later. Stay positive and lean on all of us here on the forum.

Barbie

 

[anita]

Jill, you are in my thoughts and prayers!

Wish you the best

Anita

 

[bcody]

Jill, I am so sorry you are going through this. You have my prayers. I know it is hard, but try to stay positive, and lean on us here if you need us, that is why we are here.

 

[drk]

Hi Jill, It's okay to be scared and just remember that you have the power to get through this...

Try not to allow anything like this to bring you down... You be STRONG and kick butt to do whatever you have to to get past this ! Your MIND is a powerful tool so stay POSITIVE and be DETERMINED.

I'm sending {{HUGS}} and will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope that this is nothing serious and that you will breeze right through it ....

We are all here if you need us !!!!

 

[minie812]

Jill, You are in my prayers

 

[luv2ridesaddleseat]

Hold on Jill! Take a deep BBRREEAATTHH. Nearly always this stuff is minor! Seriously, wait until you see the Doctor that knows more of what is going on. OK?????? You are STRONG! Don't panic! If need be, surgery can get this minor disturbance out of your body! You can do this! Keep us informed, but I know this will pass! Hang in there.

Joyce

 

[Charley]

Jill, you are in my prayers.

 

[Crabby-Chicken]

Hope it all turns out just fine! Wishing you the best.

 

[dreaminmini]

Prayers and best wishes. Hope it ends up being nothing. Try not to worry. The waiting isn't fun but I'm betting everything will work out okay.

 

[susanne]

Jill,

When I read the title of your post, I was ready to look up your number and call...then I realized, I'm West Coast, you're East Coast...you're a morning person and I'm a night owl...Are we each other's opposites or what?

All joking aside, I'll be thinking of you constantly, anxiously awaiting your results. Like Marty, I, too, worried when I didn't see any posts from you -- I did a search and saw that you had responded to several other threads, but I still had a funny feeling, so it's so good to read this.

Since I work at home (and stay up til the cows come home), feel free to call me at any time, 503 543 7347.

Take care,

susanne

 

[PrestigeMiniHorses]

Oh jill you know if you ever need anything you can reach me at anytime. You are in my thoughts and prayers.....

 

[GOTTACK]

Jill. you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Lisa

 

[Jill]

Thank you all, my friends

I'm just so scared like literally shaking at times. I called my parents' after the doctor's yesterday (they were waiting to hear) and they started crying so then I started crying and more this morning. Just I cannot even find enough words to define the degree of scared that hits me in waves.

A friend of mine from here told me about a similar situation (almost identical) that she had and it wasn't lung cancer. That made me feel a lot better but it's hard not to let the panic carry me away and that d*mn "Dr. Google" of course feeds all the worries but it's so hard not to look...

The doctor I am seeing about this is actually an infectious disease doctor I was referred to by my Endo based on this inflammation that showed in bloodwork and telling him about the sick colts I got last year. I've been the one pressing doctors since January (primary and endo) for why was my CRP (inflammation) so high. This infectious disease doctor ordered the xray and then the CT scan I had on Thursday and here we are...

Yesterday, my sister's husband took their boys to the park and a doctor friend was there and he told him what's going on and what that doctor said as reassuring. Kirk had the doctor repeat it when Robin got there so she wouldn't think he sugar coated it and he said that the biopsy is the gold standard for diagnosing and by far most of the time, it is not cancer. The doctor they talked to is a primary care doctor. I'm gonna figure he sees more of "this" than my infectious disease doctor, but I don't know for sure.

On Monday, I will call the doctor helping me navigate this and see if there's someone in Charlottesville they can call. I'm not sure they understand exactly where I live and they're trying Fredericksburg and Northern VA but some the doctors are out, etc. Charlottesville is closer than Northern VA but the main thing, obviously, is that I want to see someone ASAP (today works for me -- I'm so worried!).

Right now, I've got such tunnel vision, I don't even want to think of / fool with the horses and you all know that is NOT me! That is a big part of why I've been "quieter". Plus, the past couple of weeks I've been busier than normal so busy + worried = sulky Jill during my "free time".

And, yes, the Xanax will help. I have a prescription I can fill every so often to take "as needed" (low dose). I refill it each time I can and have two bottle's worth I've not used plus a small amount I keep in my purse "just in case". I will see if I can take more if I need to or what. It can help me from letting my imagination go too far out but with this situation, it's already about as far out as I usually worry up o my own.

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. It means a lot to me. Such a roller coaster

Jill

 

[kaykay]

Sending prayers that this is just a minor bump in the road!

Kay

 

[Minimor]

I was going to add this Jill--when I was in hospital for my surgery the anesthesiast (sp?) came around to talk to each patient before their surgery. He told me that because I had never smoked (and I'd think that only 2 smokes for you would put you in the never-smoked category too!) my tumor was almost certainly NOT cancer.

He then told my roommate--an older lady who had smoked for years, right up until the day she was diagnosed with a lung tumor--that because she was a smoker her tumor would most likely turn out to be cancer. I thought that if he had told me such a thing I would have been devastated, but this older later was very matter of fact about it.

As it turned out mine was a very low grade sort of cancer, a tumor that isn't usually found in the lung--non-metastasizing and not aggressive--as long as all of it was removed in surgery there was little chance it would grow back. It hasn't.

And my roommate--hers wasn't cancer either! It was some sort of tumor caused by tuberculosis.

So definitely do keep reminding yourself that this doesn't have to be as bad as you keep worrying that it is!

Are you feeling okay? Not excessively tired/dragged out feeling? Not losing weight? Not coughing?

 

[Bassett]

I'm so sorry Jill. Please try to keep the worry and stress level as low as you can. I know it will be next to impossible but try to keep busy and try not to worry about it. It can greatly affect your diabetes. Stress and worry will do that to diabetics. I know that for a fact in my case. Think about you and praying for you to come through with a clean bill of health.

(((((((HUGS)))))))