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Jill

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I am SO scared
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In January, I had bloodwork that showed increased inflamation in my body. They kept monitoring it, had a chest xray and yesterday a CT scan which I went to the doctor's to hear about today.

At the doctors, she told me my CT scan showed a lession 1.9 cm x 2.6 cm in my upper lobe of my left lung. I will see a pulmonologist on the 11th unless my doctor who's helping me (infectious disease, though this isn't her dept) can find one who can get me in sooner. That doctor will look at the XRay and CT and schedule a biopsy, which I wish they could do tomorrow.

Jill

PS In all my life, I think I smoked 2x in Jr. High

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UPDATE 08-07-09

Just got home from the appt with the pulmonologist. They did lung function tests and she showed me my pictures even though I started crying and said I didn't want to see (way to go, Jill). My lung function was 65%! But she said that's not that bad.

She thinks I do have lung cancer, and she told me the kind, but I forget. But this is a very slow growing, very treatable, very good prognosis situation. I asked her that repeatedly and she kept saying very good prognosis. It's this certain kind that is apt to happen to women my age who haven't smoked. The CT scan shows it only in this one place (upper lobe) but there is consolidation or whatever of the lung around it. This is small compared to my lung, not maybe even 15% of that lung in terms of the consolidation, however, it is probably effectimg how much air I can take in. This maybe explains a lot of my "tiredness" the past couple of years really. So yay -- maybe I'm not just lazy.

There will be a bronchospy (sp?) biopsy Tuesday morning, then I will see her Friday afternoon for results, though she's indicated already what she thinks it is. If it's what she thinks, obviously, it must come out. If they can take it out "with a camera" (too dumb to grasp this concept), I'll be in hospital for 3 days. If regular surgery, about 5 days.

Usually no chemo (sp?) is even needed for this. It is like so slow growing, and unlike a lot of lung cancers, not likely to spread to other parts of the body.

Bright side is that maybe they can get it out, and I can have fuller lung function! Some test showed my body is getting oxogen all around good or pretty good. It's a blur.

This morning, I never would have thought she could tell me she thinks I have lung cancer, and I'd feel the weight of the world off my shoulder but that is how I feel. She thinks I'll be around for a long time. One of her first patients ever had this same things she thinks I have and she is totally fine 10 years later.
 
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I sure understand your being frightened Jill. I will keep you in my prayers and hopefully they can get all these tests done quickly for you so you can have definitive answers soon. Keep your chin up and stay positive.
 
Jill, will definitely be keeping you in my thoughts for a good outcome and prayers. Hopefully your doctor will be able to get you in to see a specialist sooner, waiting almost 2 weeks will /can put alot of stress on you.

Corinne
 
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Jill, keeping you in my thoughts and prayers for a good outcome and tests sooner than 2 weeks. Please take care.
 
Sending prayers your way Jill!! Try and keep the positive thoughts going while you wait!!
 
Jill, I am so sorry you are going through this. As others have said perhaps you will be able to see the specialist earlier. You certainly will be in my thoughts and prayers. You know we are all here for you to help you get through the next two weeks. Hugs to you
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JIll

Prayers from Maine for you to take it easy until you truly know what you are dealing with and for a quicker appt with the specialist.
 
Sending prayers for you Jill!

Lung problems are scary, I know that for sure--been there done that! I had 2/3 of my right lung removed the spring of 1985. I've never taken so much as one puff of a cigarette.

Did your doctor indicate what kind of biopsy they will do? By bronchoscopy, or by needle? I think I read that they do some needle biopsies on lungs--mine was by bronchoscopy. I worried myself sick over having that done, and really there was nothing to it--it wasn't as bad as I imagined. No pain, really no discomfort--perhaps thanks to a dose of morphine beforehand. The worst part was the reaction to the morphine afterward. I was so SICK from it!
 
Jill, I know you are terrified and I am so sorry you have to go thought this. I know no matter what anyone says it will not ease your fears until you have seen the Pulmonologist. I pray you can get in to see one sooner then the 11th. Sending you lots of hugs. I am always here if you need me.

Carol
 
Adding my prayers to the list Jill, for a clean slate, good health, peace and calm thru this waiting period.
 
Jill I KNEW something was wrong when you haven't posted in a while! I can imagine your fears are so great right now and so so so so so sorry you are going to be put through this. If anyone can tackle this crap head on and blow it all to kingdom come its you! Come on gal, you know you are going to give this one great big kick in the butt and you have tons of backup here for you. You can call me anytime even if its just to scream or swear I'm here.
 
I'll keep you in my thoughts as well Jill.

I can't imagine how scared I would be if I were in your shoes.....but do try to keep positive about everything....

((((hugs)))) and lots of kisses from the corgi crew

~kathryn
 
Jill, please know you will definitely be in my thoughts and prayers. I sure hope that the specialist has a cancellation and you get in much sooner. I'm sure the hardest part of this is the waiting. Take care my friend.
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Jill, dont worry untill there is something to worry about
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I know, easier said than done. But I can tell you from past experience, that more often than not, when they 'see' or 'think they see' something, it turns out to be nothing. Keep your chin up and go hug your ponies
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Jill, I am so sorry you are worrying and waiting. You'll be in our prayers. Waiting is just about the hardest part. Hope you can get in to see the specialist sooner.

A friend of mine had a scare with a spot or two in her lungs. Turned out she had inhaled something that caused a fungus or something similar. A few rounds of antibiotics had her fit again. Those of us who are outside in dirt, manure, hay and dust can pick up all sorts of things. Try to be positive about the outcome.
 
Sending tons of prayers and good thoughts Jill..as someone else mentioned do your best not to worry until you see the specialist (I know thats near impossible but try)...doctors are often wrong on thier first impression/diagnose...my nephew was having problems swollowing and he had some tests done by his family doctor..said family doctor told my sister that Greg had a rare heart condition and would require surgery..turns out after seeing the specialist it was nothing more than acid reflux..my whole family was worried sick..My mother spent a week crying non-stop for her grandson...justone example of many stories I've heard of 1st diagnose...I will be praying that this as well is a mis-diagnose.

Hopefully they can get you in sooner...sending tons of hugs, good thoughts, and prayers your way...hang in there!
 
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