justaboutgeese
Well-Known Member
For those of you that have been helping me, coaching and guiding me through this turmoil for these last few months many thanks. I went to my doctor this afternoon and was given an ultimatum. I have had a weight loss problem ( some people would say don`t we wish) since this ordeal started. Last week during my visit I was down 72 lbs and was put on some protein supplements to prevent further losses. This week I was down three more pounds and given until the end of the week (Friday morning to be exact) to put on at least two pounds. Not that I couldn`t have stood to lose a few pounds but she is calling this extreme. Without coming out and saying it she is "reserved" about my current mental well being. I could not take antidepressants just because the side effects were considerably worse than the depression I have been going through. I talked her out of all of the pills except for some Lorazapam for the anxiety which just keep the butterfly's and churning out of my stomach. My thought are that pills are not going to fix what hurts. When the pills wear off the problem is still there. It getting so I am afraid to speak with her because every other sentence out of her mouth is to go in the hospital until I get over this weight loss slide I am on. Funny, anybody ever hear of gaining weight while you are in the hospital ?? I know she is thinking its in my best interests but this doctor is not old enough to pretend to know what I am going through. I readily tell her I have socks older than she is. Being winter conditions in a house that gets most of its heat from wood means the house just cannot be left or I will be spending a small fortune on heating oil. My dogs cannot stay alone and the boarding kennel (our only one) is closed for vacation now looking forward to have a full house with Christmas borders when they reopen.
Further the doctor will not commit to how long I might stay there. I suspect she is more concerned with my mental attitude rather than my weight loss. Its no secret that there is a fair amount of depression in my life right now but time will heal that over time (she is the one of the many people who have been telling me that). The thought of leaving my home along with all the other domestic issues in my life is not an issue to deal with at this point in time. I further worry about just what my (ex) wife would do. She could be back here in a matter of hours to finish what she started. She readily admits there were many things she left behind because if the neighbors saw larger items being loaded into a strange truck at the time they would figure out something was going on. That would no longer be an issue and when I got back I probably would not even have a welcome mat.
With everything thats going on I just do not want this additional hassle right now. My plate is full enough and my future is already insecure enough without this added anxiety. My daughter in Texas wants me to jump on the next plane down but the house and dogs still remain an issue. The older daughter is working twelve hour shifts in order to get orders caught up so the plant can close for Christmas so it leaves her in a bad stop. My dogs and her two do not always "play well" together. Not that there is anything that can be done about this I am glad I could at least come here and vent about it. Not meaning to be the Grinch but so far this holiday season is not rating real high on my best ever scale.
Further the doctor will not commit to how long I might stay there. I suspect she is more concerned with my mental attitude rather than my weight loss. Its no secret that there is a fair amount of depression in my life right now but time will heal that over time (she is the one of the many people who have been telling me that). The thought of leaving my home along with all the other domestic issues in my life is not an issue to deal with at this point in time. I further worry about just what my (ex) wife would do. She could be back here in a matter of hours to finish what she started. She readily admits there were many things she left behind because if the neighbors saw larger items being loaded into a strange truck at the time they would figure out something was going on. That would no longer be an issue and when I got back I probably would not even have a welcome mat.
With everything thats going on I just do not want this additional hassle right now. My plate is full enough and my future is already insecure enough without this added anxiety. My daughter in Texas wants me to jump on the next plane down but the house and dogs still remain an issue. The older daughter is working twelve hour shifts in order to get orders caught up so the plant can close for Christmas so it leaves her in a bad stop. My dogs and her two do not always "play well" together. Not that there is anything that can be done about this I am glad I could at least come here and vent about it. Not meaning to be the Grinch but so far this holiday season is not rating real high on my best ever scale.
