Candleliteranch
Well-Known Member
We have a wonderful mare that was 31 this past spring. She's as sweet as they come and has always had an "old soul". I've posted about her before as we thought we were going to lose her last fall when my gelding died. They were best friends for over 10 years. Every winter for the last three or so years we thought she wouldn't make it through till spring. She hates being in the barn, hates wearing a blanket, will not eat anything other than her regular feed, no supplements, no beet pulp, no senior feed. We've tried it all over the last couple of years but she adamantely refuses. She has no front teeth on top, so can't pull grass or eat from a round bale. This we can deal with by feeding her seperately, which she hates. She is skin and bones and even though she eats well, is starving to death. She was always a boss mare, but now is letting some of the younger horses boss her around. I've found kick and bite marks on her lately which brings tears to my eyes. Such a grand lady being knocked down, peg by peg. I feel like I'm feeling her pain and frustration. I so love this old gal. She is technically my daughter's horse, but I've taken over her care for the last year. I told my daughter it's her decision as to when to put her down, but to let her go while she still has her dignity. I also told her I would handle the details for her. Now it's possibly time and I don't know if I can do this.
When I worked for my vet, he said I should take on a job of being a pet grief counseler because I handled it so well. People called the office after the fact and said how much I helped them in making the right decision and comforting them. Well, now it's my turn and I'm crying buckets of tears just writing this. My mind says it's time to let her go, but dang, when she keeps coming to the barn at feeding time and scarfs up her breakfast and dinner......I always told Kyleigh that when the sparkle in her eye and the spring in her step is gone, then it's time. Logically, the time has come, but my heart is breaking. She is tentatively to be put to rest on Friday. Am I doing the right thing by her??? Am I just trying to make things easier for me?? Or am I being selfish for wanting to keep her longer?? I thought I had this all straight in my mind, but my heart is arguing. What would you do??
When I worked for my vet, he said I should take on a job of being a pet grief counseler because I handled it so well. People called the office after the fact and said how much I helped them in making the right decision and comforting them. Well, now it's my turn and I'm crying buckets of tears just writing this. My mind says it's time to let her go, but dang, when she keeps coming to the barn at feeding time and scarfs up her breakfast and dinner......I always told Kyleigh that when the sparkle in her eye and the spring in her step is gone, then it's time. Logically, the time has come, but my heart is breaking. She is tentatively to be put to rest on Friday. Am I doing the right thing by her??? Am I just trying to make things easier for me?? Or am I being selfish for wanting to keep her longer?? I thought I had this all straight in my mind, but my heart is arguing. What would you do??