MiniHoofBeats
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I noticed when I get depressed, I tend to take my anger and hurt out on my boyfriend and I feel horrible about it...(i'll feel horrible about writing this as soon as I hit enter too but I need to talk about it to someone).
He has been going through a lot of emotional junk recently, his best friend just screwed him over BIG time and he's now lost him as his best friend. He just got a new job and is getting used to that. He's been broke for the last few weeks so he's feeling financially pressed. His way of dealing with stuff is to sit by himself and just, think things through. He doesn't go to me, or friends, for help. His mom passed away, his dad is of no help, he has no family to turn to in times of crisis. There is my family but, he chooses instead to deal with things himself as he always has. One of his ways of dealing is to go out by himself and just sit at a bar by himself for a few hours. Here is where I wonder if I am being too possessive or clingy...I hate when he does that. I hate when 9pm rolls around and he suddenly springs out of bed where we were calmly watching tv, and he tells me he wants to go out, by himself. Even when I mention how I could also really use getting out of the house for a while, he stops dead in his tracks and says no, he needs to be by himself. Here's where I end up sobbing and yelling at him for leaving me all alone, he knows I have barely any friends, no one to hang out with on last minute notice, and having my occupational licence, I can't just drive to a bar on my own to do something while he's gone. I feel abandoned...and I definitely get separation anxiety.
Last night we argued...he told me how he just really needs this time alone to figure out what is going on with his life. I tell him how I feel abandoned when he leaves me behind. Am I in the wrong? Should I give him this time alone? I know I am very needy...I always want him with me, every night I want to hang out with him and see him and go out to the bars or to a friends with him...never by myself, I don't ever want to go anywhere without him...but, it hurts to hear he is so different, he actually wants to go places without me...
I know he loves me, he truly does, he doesn't even so much as look at other girls so I have no worries of that...this is all just about me and my stupid clingy neediness....is it so wrong or, am I in the right to feel abandoned? I don't know how to get myself to stop feeling abandoned...what can I do? I have been trying to make more local friends but please...being a girl it is VERY hard to go out and try to make friends! All I get are drunk guys, or other girls glaring at me...it sucks...I hope I can find some friends soon!
I don't know what happened...when we first started dating 4 years ago, we were literally completely opposite! I had a ton of friends, a different one each night wanted to hang out and I had to schedule time in just to see my boyfriend. Whereas, he had just gotten out of a horrible relationship where he was used, emotionally abused, and cheated on in the end. Many nights he would lie with me and cry on my shoulder, cry himself to sleep. He was extremely clingy to me...eventually, I sat him down and I told him straight up that he needs to stop being so clingy, that I can't handle it...and...it worked, for him...but now, I feel so stupid! I truly wish he was still the clingy man I fell in love with...I feel stupid for telling him he needs to stop crying, and needs to stop being so clingy. Now I wonder how I would feel if he told me the same thing...well i'd probably just get defensive or something.
Anyhow...anyone else in a similar situation, or go through one? I could really use some guidance, some advice...I am not looking to break up with him so please no replies of "maybe we should part ways". I am really just looking at help for how to help ME get over my neediness, possessiveness, and clinginess.
Thanks!
He has been going through a lot of emotional junk recently, his best friend just screwed him over BIG time and he's now lost him as his best friend. He just got a new job and is getting used to that. He's been broke for the last few weeks so he's feeling financially pressed. His way of dealing with stuff is to sit by himself and just, think things through. He doesn't go to me, or friends, for help. His mom passed away, his dad is of no help, he has no family to turn to in times of crisis. There is my family but, he chooses instead to deal with things himself as he always has. One of his ways of dealing is to go out by himself and just sit at a bar by himself for a few hours. Here is where I wonder if I am being too possessive or clingy...I hate when he does that. I hate when 9pm rolls around and he suddenly springs out of bed where we were calmly watching tv, and he tells me he wants to go out, by himself. Even when I mention how I could also really use getting out of the house for a while, he stops dead in his tracks and says no, he needs to be by himself. Here's where I end up sobbing and yelling at him for leaving me all alone, he knows I have barely any friends, no one to hang out with on last minute notice, and having my occupational licence, I can't just drive to a bar on my own to do something while he's gone. I feel abandoned...and I definitely get separation anxiety.
Last night we argued...he told me how he just really needs this time alone to figure out what is going on with his life. I tell him how I feel abandoned when he leaves me behind. Am I in the wrong? Should I give him this time alone? I know I am very needy...I always want him with me, every night I want to hang out with him and see him and go out to the bars or to a friends with him...never by myself, I don't ever want to go anywhere without him...but, it hurts to hear he is so different, he actually wants to go places without me...
I know he loves me, he truly does, he doesn't even so much as look at other girls so I have no worries of that...this is all just about me and my stupid clingy neediness....is it so wrong or, am I in the right to feel abandoned? I don't know how to get myself to stop feeling abandoned...what can I do? I have been trying to make more local friends but please...being a girl it is VERY hard to go out and try to make friends! All I get are drunk guys, or other girls glaring at me...it sucks...I hope I can find some friends soon!
I don't know what happened...when we first started dating 4 years ago, we were literally completely opposite! I had a ton of friends, a different one each night wanted to hang out and I had to schedule time in just to see my boyfriend. Whereas, he had just gotten out of a horrible relationship where he was used, emotionally abused, and cheated on in the end. Many nights he would lie with me and cry on my shoulder, cry himself to sleep. He was extremely clingy to me...eventually, I sat him down and I told him straight up that he needs to stop being so clingy, that I can't handle it...and...it worked, for him...but now, I feel so stupid! I truly wish he was still the clingy man I fell in love with...I feel stupid for telling him he needs to stop crying, and needs to stop being so clingy. Now I wonder how I would feel if he told me the same thing...well i'd probably just get defensive or something.
Anyhow...anyone else in a similar situation, or go through one? I could really use some guidance, some advice...I am not looking to break up with him so please no replies of "maybe we should part ways". I am really just looking at help for how to help ME get over my neediness, possessiveness, and clinginess.
Thanks!