Carolyn R
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I know there are more worthwhile things to pray for, I know in the large picture, this is very minuscule, but some prayers would still be greatly appreciated.
I'll try not to write a novel......I tossed in the towel on breeding last year, I had dealt with several deaths in the family between 2010 and 2011. One of the dealth's was my 98 year old grandmother that my parents, my husband and I cared for 4.5 years. I was home with the kids already so much of this was on me 24/7. She was not the loving grandmother that many are blessed with, but I loved her inspite of herself. She was in the end stages of geriatric care, spoon feeding, depends, sponge bathes, she had very little motility or quality of life in the last two years of her life. Her death was very hard to handle even at her age, living a very long life, it was very hard for me when she passed. It was one of those moments in life that one sits back and evaluates things. I was on the fence about breeding any longer, then a mini I raised and sold ended up not having the life I hoped. That was all it took to make me say "enough, I am done with trying to raise something for other people's enjoyment."
I placed all but two mini's and recycled the money for a dream horse, a Gypsy Vanner. I brought her home last fall, she came with a free future breeding, which I had planned on taking advantage of next year. Several months after I purchased her, the unthinkable happened,it was the first week of January. I had her tied with a slip knot, grabbed the mini's to place them in their turnout, so she could go in the large turnout, in that 30 seconds, she jarred back to see where I was, the slip knot failed and she snapped the stall bar out of the track at the base, and pulled it into her eye. She had to have her eye removed. She has recovered like none other, she puts the movie "war horse" to shame, she is amazing, but I feel so horrible about it. I became so paranoid about the thought of breeding her and the what ifs....what If she miscarries, what if she has a horrid distocia, what if I loose her, or the most unforgivable, what is she has a beautiful foal, one I dreamed of to be her lifelong buddy here, then being a nervous new mom, she misjudges and steps on it due to her limited vision on her left side?
We made the decision to purchase rather than breed her, I could not face the outcome if something were to happen. I don't look at her mishap as an accident, I continually feel solely responsable for it and feel that I would be letting her down if something happened because I insisted on breeding her.
I put a deposit on a in utero foal yesterday. She is actually 2 days over due, she is a proven mare, this is her fifth and this is a repeat cross that has been done two times before with nice results. I can insure the foal with mortality insurance at 24 hours as long as the IGg test is good, and I can fully insure it at 30 days old for medical and mortality. I can't pay what I paid for my mare, I can't justify paying that for a family companion. This is was an opportunity for me to buy another for a much lower price, but with that comes risk.
I know there are much more worth while things to pray for, I pray for those things daily, I pray for each and every prayer request I see, and while it seems rather frivolous, I am still ask the dear Lord above for a heathy mare and foal, easy delivery and to keep the foal in his watchful, protective care, I humbly ask
for some prayers to be sent this way. I am sorry for the novel but I believe in the power of prayer.
I'll try not to write a novel......I tossed in the towel on breeding last year, I had dealt with several deaths in the family between 2010 and 2011. One of the dealth's was my 98 year old grandmother that my parents, my husband and I cared for 4.5 years. I was home with the kids already so much of this was on me 24/7. She was not the loving grandmother that many are blessed with, but I loved her inspite of herself. She was in the end stages of geriatric care, spoon feeding, depends, sponge bathes, she had very little motility or quality of life in the last two years of her life. Her death was very hard to handle even at her age, living a very long life, it was very hard for me when she passed. It was one of those moments in life that one sits back and evaluates things. I was on the fence about breeding any longer, then a mini I raised and sold ended up not having the life I hoped. That was all it took to make me say "enough, I am done with trying to raise something for other people's enjoyment."
I placed all but two mini's and recycled the money for a dream horse, a Gypsy Vanner. I brought her home last fall, she came with a free future breeding, which I had planned on taking advantage of next year. Several months after I purchased her, the unthinkable happened,it was the first week of January. I had her tied with a slip knot, grabbed the mini's to place them in their turnout, so she could go in the large turnout, in that 30 seconds, she jarred back to see where I was, the slip knot failed and she snapped the stall bar out of the track at the base, and pulled it into her eye. She had to have her eye removed. She has recovered like none other, she puts the movie "war horse" to shame, she is amazing, but I feel so horrible about it. I became so paranoid about the thought of breeding her and the what ifs....what If she miscarries, what if she has a horrid distocia, what if I loose her, or the most unforgivable, what is she has a beautiful foal, one I dreamed of to be her lifelong buddy here, then being a nervous new mom, she misjudges and steps on it due to her limited vision on her left side?
We made the decision to purchase rather than breed her, I could not face the outcome if something were to happen. I don't look at her mishap as an accident, I continually feel solely responsable for it and feel that I would be letting her down if something happened because I insisted on breeding her.
I put a deposit on a in utero foal yesterday. She is actually 2 days over due, she is a proven mare, this is her fifth and this is a repeat cross that has been done two times before with nice results. I can insure the foal with mortality insurance at 24 hours as long as the IGg test is good, and I can fully insure it at 30 days old for medical and mortality. I can't pay what I paid for my mare, I can't justify paying that for a family companion. This is was an opportunity for me to buy another for a much lower price, but with that comes risk.
I know there are much more worth while things to pray for, I pray for those things daily, I pray for each and every prayer request I see, and while it seems rather frivolous, I am still ask the dear Lord above for a heathy mare and foal, easy delivery and to keep the foal in his watchful, protective care, I humbly ask
for some prayers to be sent this way. I am sorry for the novel but I believe in the power of prayer.
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