Ok so here I go with my problems.....
A week ago I found out that one of my close mates tried to commit suicide. It was really depressing to find out that she has actually been cutting herself for a year and none has known, she has always covered it up.
She has been going through all the stages of bad depression at school and I dont think she is getting any better although she hasnt cut herself again yet. Although sometimes she has a anger fit and she goes into the toilets and punches the wall till her knuckles bleed which makes me and some other friends cry. She writes really really sad poems about her just wanting to leave the world and stuff like that which is really depressing.
Also me and my Mum have being having really bad problems. We have being arguing and fighting lots and she even kicked me out one night so I had to go and stay with a close family friend. I have threatened to run away and she told me to just go then which made me even angrier.
I also have a lot of pressure from my family and tight family friends to stay in top top stream at school.
I think this is all proving to be to much for me. I have read in magazines the symptoms for depressin and I think I have it. I try and act all chirpy and as if nothing is wrong and at night when I get back from school I just break down. My family is unaware and I am too ashamed to tell them, I am to embarrased and afraid they wont believe me and think I am being pathetic but they have no idea how loney and helpless I am feeling.
I really need some support guys, some help, some love. I feel ready to give up. I really need help, I want to beat this.
A week ago I found out that one of my close mates tried to commit suicide. It was really depressing to find out that she has actually been cutting herself for a year and none has known, she has always covered it up.
She has been going through all the stages of bad depression at school and I dont think she is getting any better although she hasnt cut herself again yet. Although sometimes she has a anger fit and she goes into the toilets and punches the wall till her knuckles bleed which makes me and some other friends cry. She writes really really sad poems about her just wanting to leave the world and stuff like that which is really depressing.
Also me and my Mum have being having really bad problems. We have being arguing and fighting lots and she even kicked me out one night so I had to go and stay with a close family friend. I have threatened to run away and she told me to just go then which made me even angrier.
I also have a lot of pressure from my family and tight family friends to stay in top top stream at school.
I think this is all proving to be to much for me. I have read in magazines the symptoms for depressin and I think I have it. I try and act all chirpy and as if nothing is wrong and at night when I get back from school I just break down. My family is unaware and I am too ashamed to tell them, I am to embarrased and afraid they wont believe me and think I am being pathetic but they have no idea how loney and helpless I am feeling.
I really need some support guys, some help, some love. I feel ready to give up. I really need help, I want to beat this.