Hello all,
I just needed to vent.
My family is moving in about four months. We still have about three months of school left, and I have been busy, with horse judging practice and contests, and homework, plus many other things. My Mom wants me to box up my room, and I have been trying, really I have. But I look around the room and wonder, if I pack that up, will I need it two weeks from now? And if I do box it, and I happen to need it, will I remember what box I put it in? :no:
My mom does not live with the rest of the family during the week. She works three and a half hours away, and only makes it home on weekends. So that is the reason, me, my siblings, my dad and the animals are moving up there this summer, to be with her. When my mom is home on the weekends, I can't do anything really..I have to stick around the house, and I can understand that, but if she is making me move, I would like to have more then one date with the guy I like, or go out with friends too..I balance it so that I still see her more throughout the weekend. So its not like I am gone for days on end, just like a Saturday afternoon or a Saturday night every now and then....and it feels like I am on house arrest when she doesn't let me go out at all. She doesn't have to let me do stuff every weekend, but it seems like she is cracking the whip lately. I don't know, maybe I am just being selfish...
When she got the job up there, I tried to be happy. But, I know this is selfish, I kept thinking about all the stuff I was leaving behind. The memories I have made here, the people I always thought I'd graduate with, my friends, my routine, my boyfriend, my place...
My animals will be coming with me, and that is a plus at least.
My mom tries to tell me its for the best, but I don't know if she realizes that no one else wants to leave. We were doing fine before she got this job, why can't we go back to that?
I have already moved once in my lifetime, and I don't want to do it again. I am 16 and going to start 10th grade year in a new school...new pecking orders, new bullies, and new everything.
I have just finally settled into my life. I am comfortable in my skin, I am happy right now. And now its all being torn apart..
I guess I am just being selfish...
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I just needed to vent.
My family is moving in about four months. We still have about three months of school left, and I have been busy, with horse judging practice and contests, and homework, plus many other things. My Mom wants me to box up my room, and I have been trying, really I have. But I look around the room and wonder, if I pack that up, will I need it two weeks from now? And if I do box it, and I happen to need it, will I remember what box I put it in? :no:
My mom does not live with the rest of the family during the week. She works three and a half hours away, and only makes it home on weekends. So that is the reason, me, my siblings, my dad and the animals are moving up there this summer, to be with her. When my mom is home on the weekends, I can't do anything really..I have to stick around the house, and I can understand that, but if she is making me move, I would like to have more then one date with the guy I like, or go out with friends too..I balance it so that I still see her more throughout the weekend. So its not like I am gone for days on end, just like a Saturday afternoon or a Saturday night every now and then....and it feels like I am on house arrest when she doesn't let me go out at all. She doesn't have to let me do stuff every weekend, but it seems like she is cracking the whip lately. I don't know, maybe I am just being selfish...
When she got the job up there, I tried to be happy. But, I know this is selfish, I kept thinking about all the stuff I was leaving behind. The memories I have made here, the people I always thought I'd graduate with, my friends, my routine, my boyfriend, my place...
My animals will be coming with me, and that is a plus at least.
My mom tries to tell me its for the best, but I don't know if she realizes that no one else wants to leave. We were doing fine before she got this job, why can't we go back to that?
I have already moved once in my lifetime, and I don't want to do it again. I am 16 and going to start 10th grade year in a new school...new pecking orders, new bullies, and new everything.
I have just finally settled into my life. I am comfortable in my skin, I am happy right now. And now its all being torn apart..
I guess I am just being selfish...