Reignmaker Miniatures
Well-Known Member
I am having a simply awful day today. I woke up early to birdsong and sunshine and got up thinking it was going to be a perfect day. Well I put the coffee on and opened my deck door to call my female bullmastiff and she didn't come. She has always been right there when I call and is always with either me or my special needs daughter who adores her. She is almost 6 and has never wandered and I am terrified that she has met with harm from the large packs of coyotes that hunt in my pastures. I've called the SPCA and the city pound (even tho we're quite some ways from the city many people still call if they find a 'stray') She wears no collar since the risk of becoming tangled in the bush is too great but she is very friendly and the kindest dog I've ever owned or known. I have been trying very hard not to cry since my daughter would be upset and I cannot explain to her what is wrong. She keeps asking for her dog and I have no way to explain to her whats going on. My male (Roxi's 2 year old son) has stopped eating and seems depressed and I am worried that he instinctively knows what I am not ready to face. I have walked as far as I dare from my house calling (she ALWAYS comes running when she hears my voice) and listening but there is nothing but silence and birds. It is such a terribly hot day and I am sick with thinking she may be laying out there hurt and no protection from the sun and nothing to drink. I would search my entire 230+ acres but if I take my daughter and we find her torn up or killed my daughter would be traumatized and if she's already gone it would be even worse. I have now got a terrible headache and am sick to my stomache from this. Normally I don't get physically ill from stress so I guess its from trying to hold it inside. Anyway I just needed to vent because my heart is breaking, my daughter will be crushed and my husband will be devastated too. I know this dog and if she could get home she would so I am expecting the worst.