Sonya
Well-Known Member
Thought I would come here and share my feelings with you all...I know you have all gone through this (and even the passing of a child, which I can not even fathom)...My Dad has been sick for a very long time...5-6 years dealing with COPD...he would have good days where he could do alittle and then many bad days where he just laid in bed. He lasted alot longer than they expected and has been on Hospice for over a year (twice a week)...last week they started coming daily and my Father has requested my sister from NC and me. My parents live in PA along with my older sister, I am in MI.
I knew this was coming, but it certainly doesn't make it easier. Living far away and having a job I just can't leave whenever has given me alot of guilt, we go there to visit about every 3 months...it has also been hard being at work and trying to focus. I had to call in sick on Thursday because I was just too emotional, I am an Air Traffic Controller...and I have to be focused. I know he is suffering and I want to tell him it's ok he can go, or say something really profound that puts him at peace...I know he is afraid....I have laid awake at night trying to think of the way I want to say it. My Dad is 71, not young, but not really old for todays standards.
Me and my sister are going to meet at my parents this Monday....Anyhow, just wanted to share....I know many have gone through this and understand. I just hope I can be strong when I get there, I don't want to break down in front of him, I don't want him to worry about any of us.
Thanks for listening.
I knew this was coming, but it certainly doesn't make it easier. Living far away and having a job I just can't leave whenever has given me alot of guilt, we go there to visit about every 3 months...it has also been hard being at work and trying to focus. I had to call in sick on Thursday because I was just too emotional, I am an Air Traffic Controller...and I have to be focused. I know he is suffering and I want to tell him it's ok he can go, or say something really profound that puts him at peace...I know he is afraid....I have laid awake at night trying to think of the way I want to say it. My Dad is 71, not young, but not really old for todays standards.
Me and my sister are going to meet at my parents this Monday....Anyhow, just wanted to share....I know many have gone through this and understand. I just hope I can be strong when I get there, I don't want to break down in front of him, I don't want him to worry about any of us.
Thanks for listening.
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